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[25 Jul 2008|07:46am] |
Early morning hours have not been my forte for a long time. Sunrises are beautiful but sunsets have become a joy in that cannot be taken away from me from a grouchy and early morning blues of what could or could not occur within the day. For the past year enjoying them alone has become my past time and for some reason my heart has reserved those few sunrises for someone special but with no someone special they are currently reserved for no one. Sunsets allow me to remember that there are such beauties in the world. The daily reminder of a hot cup of coffee makes the world seem less lonely. While being alone in that time period knowing there are others out there experiencing the same thing makes it seem as if in a world where everyone is out for themselves a little more comfortable and a little more personal. With this shared experience it's easier to make my way into the house for the evening and sit down on the couch.
Instead of watching television, curling up with the latest book suits me fine. Reading for about an hour while having maybe two more cups of coffee allows me to wind down for the day. Coffee generally wind people up, for me it's always been down. Tea though, tea is a completely different story. Drinking a cup of tea every morning gets me going. Crash times with green tea tend not to happen with me so it wins out every time. The day for me generally won't start until after the sunrise though. Sometimes it feels like the day has passed me by and on others there are times where knowing the details of the brightly colored sky have been missed by mere seconds. The day begins either way though. What turns into the written word begins to form or sometimes lack thereof. The one thing about memoirs that never ceases to amaze me is how much there is to say about one's life, especially my own, but when forced to say such words, it becomes as difficult as pulling one's own tooth. We come up with little tricks and devices in order to help us actually get up and do so even on days we don't think it's possible.
The memoirs are my life currently. The tour ended, the time on stage again of course flooded my heart with so many memories that it leaves me often times wondering why it took me so long to get on the stage again. In the same vein remembering those draining days of my earlier years on stage prompts me to remember why quickly instead of going through all that hoopla again. Producing others works is something that interests me. Music will always be a part of my life because once you're in, music is something that can affect and heal your soul so deeply that it is hard to get rid of completely in one's life. Being able to help others with their own work in some way intrigues me and hopefully the opportunities listed before me to look into don't end up being a dead end, but something tells me they wouldn't be laid out before me if they weren't promising in the first place. Hopefully that does not come off arrogant as in everything touched by my mere fingers turns to gold because that is far from the truth. All it means is that toward my business ventures, my feet don't tread lightly upon those waters until all options are dealt with and thoroughly glanced over.
At the end of the day though comes the bright colors of the sky once more. At the end of the day any drained feeling my body may or may not be experiencing is laid to rest for a peaceful night's rest. There are those rare occasions where insomnia strikes though but who hasn't dealt with such battles in their lives? Lord knows there have been so many more battles in life to fight that have become far more important in the end and taken so much more than words could begin to explain at times. Life is an amazing and wondrous thing though despite such sad events to take place in one's life. The pain brings us strength and growth though it can often times provide new outlooks we never thought we'd find ourselves having in the first place. And sometimes if we're lucky enough we find those people in life who make us think and make us question those things around us from time to time. Sometimes they make us question staying in that one place and sometimes they even prompt us to move to the beat of our own drum. Those people often times come few and far between but those are the ones who mean the most at the end of the day. Those are the ones who leave such deep imprint that they make life worth living and sometimes, well sometimes we need to be reminded of such things.
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